March 29th, 2010

My recent decision to make my dream of staring on the big screen, working along side my idols and inspirations behind the title of actor - well, to say the least, it has me nervous. I am far too excited about my decision to let this butterfly feeling get in the way though. My partner, my love - she is not fully aware of my desire to gain this title. How do you put into words this feeling of hope and desire and mix it with determination and self fulfillment? It is difficult to describe exactly how I feel every time I look ahead and picture myself as an acclaimed actress making her way through movie deal to movie deal. Excitment!! With the emotions flowing through me changing with every thought .. one feeling I am not is confused. I am not worried. I know that my determination and my stubborness will work to my advantage and I will succeed!! Someone ... anyone ... will see me, see my profile, want to meet me and then all of my hard work will have paid off.

I am excited of the idea of working aside my idols ... my ispirations. I have met actors and musicians in my short 27 years, never feeling the way my friends have - never acting as childish as my friends have at the 'meetings'. I have just taken those 'meetings' as they were - an excellent opportunity to say thank you. Thank you for working as hard as you have and giving me something to look forward to.

So here I am... all of these ideas, plans, desires .. trying to remain patient as I plan my next move, hoping that the current move - creating this profile - works out well to my advantage just as I can see it will.